trip I had planned down to the last snorkel fin.
“We changed your reservation,” she said. “Linda’s going instead. You can just go home.” She smiled like she was being reasonable, generous even. “The grandkids love her more. They’re closer to her. It makes sense for her to be the one on the beach with them.”
The sentence landed harder than any blunt force trauma I’d ever seen on a CT scan.
I turned to Kevin.
For thirty-eight years, I’ve watched emotion move across my son’s face the way I watched EKG waves march across monitors. Fear, joy, teenage arrogance, first-love stupidity, the quiet pride when he opened his Northwestern acceptance letter. I know every version of that face.
The version looking back at me at O’Hare was one I’d never seen before.
Avoidance.
Cowardice.
“Kevin,” I said. “Tell me this is a joke.”
He shifted his weight, staring somewhere






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